Frustration taking it's toll

I've not played at my best over the last couple of days, overall it has been mostly good but with a few incidents of tilt where I made decisions which had I been in a different mood or not feeling frustrated I would have made the exact opposite.

I've been playing 2-4nl for about 11 days now and during that time have logged over 14000 hands. However my progress has been snail-like to say the least. On my first day at 2-4 I won over $1400, since then I have won about $100 at this stake. Pretty crap really isn't it. However I have won $800 at 3-6 and $800 at 5-10 so am now over $3000 up in the last 11 days.

I'm not entirely sure why my winnings are not higher, for the most part I have played excellently and suffered some poor luck in key pots. However I think that in the last few days the frustration of playing at a lower stake than I have for the past 6 months has got too me a bit and I may be trying to make things happen and deviating from my usual game with less than brilliant results.

I am very capable of making big laydowns as I've found that generally when a big stack shows extra aggression throughout a hand they usually have me beat - obviously this is not always the case but a healthy ability to drop big hands is hugely important to my game.

The one hand which really really pissed me off was this - I had KK in late position and raised to $16 - 3 callers. The flop came ten high with no flush draws or obvious straight possibilities. The big stack opposite bet $50 into this. As I see it I now have a key decision and a call is weak (this is what I did) although then you can reassess on the action on the turn. A raise will give more info and a fold is actually my preferred move here based on the player. I have limited info and it's going to cost a lot to find out where I am, so folding to a $50 bet is NOT out of the question, I'd probably do this 75% to the big stack in this case. However I called, blank came on the turn and he bet $120 - easy fold in my eyes but I decided to push and got called by the set. Hardly surprising and I hate how I played it. I really hate how I played it, so much so that my couch took a beating from my elbow and that was a fine idea as I now have a bruised swollen elbow for my troubles.

This hand came 20 minutes after England had crashed ignominiously out of the football and 1 hand after I had been stacked on another table where again I had pushed where I would usually fold. SO possibly I wasn't in the greatest mindset when I did this. Annoyingly I knew I was in a bad place and should have left the tables long before this happened.

When things are not going quite as well as I hope these sorts of crushing crippling losses which can be easily avoided really get to me. My bad decisions over the past 14000 hands have cost me over $1.5k because when I make bad choices I make them for my whole stack!

I really want to move back to 5-10 as it is where I belong, wins are more significant and I enjoy the game more at that level. HOWEVER I have set myself targets and until I get them I am not going to do this. I got myself into my current state through a lack of discipline and I'm damned if I'm going to repeat it.

That said I did spy 2 very juicy games earlier so I have played 54 hands of 5-10nl and am over $800 up through that. So I am not totally ruling it out but it is not going to be a regular thing for another week or two.

Although I've not played at my best for the past 2 days I am still up during this time but I feel a bit jaded so am going to have tomorrow completely off poker. Might start watching the Soprano's or something to pass the time.

Cannot wait to move back up and this gives me something to aim for as I am over halfway to the $6k target so it's moving in the right direction at least

Steve